How do I tell you all the things I want you to know? How do I make you see all the things you could have with me? How do I tell you without breaking my own heart in the process?
I desperately want to take that leap of faith and trust that everything will turn out alright but I don't know if I am ready to hear that you really don't want me like I think you do. I don't know if I can move on. But I hate standing still like I am. I hate the place where I am right now. Stuck just being the one you talk to all the time. Not the one you love. Not the only one you love.
How do I gear up to tell you everything that could possibly put an end to everything? How do I lose you again?
How do I make you understand how much you mean to me? How do I get you to see me?
But how do I go on hearing that you think I'm prettier with my glasses than without? That I turn you just by talking about doing yoga? or hearing that you like having a message waiting from me when you wake up? How do I do all these things and not think that you want more with me but just are too afraid to change your life around?
How am I not enough to make you want to change your life around?
